Conflicted.
This morning I came across an article ...
A Promising New Way to Screen for Down Syndrome
Just reading the headline makes me want to hurl, to be honest. And it makes me feel conflicted. Five years ago, I likely would have read this article with curiosity ... I mean, I did not want my unborn child to have Down syndrome.
The thought of it scared me. But I didn't know what I didn't know.
I get frustrated because I love my girls with every ounce of my soul. How could I think something like this is promising or exciting? Is it not essentially an effort to rid this earth of individuals with Down syndrome?
It brings me to tears.
And then there is a part of me that feels like I need to get it. It was the exact shoes I stood in 5 years ago. Now having two children with Down syndrome, I sort of find myself standing in those shoes once again ... you know, if we ever were to have children again. But it isn't because I wouldn't want another Payton or another Nika ... it is because I have my hands full with special needs and I really do not need any more.
So yeah ... as it sit here and type this rambled mess of thoughts ... I think it is different. And the headline still makes me want to hurl.
Rather than backspace a million times and try to explain my thoughts exactly, just watch this ...
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A Promising New Way to Screen for Down Syndrome
Just reading the headline makes me want to hurl, to be honest. And it makes me feel conflicted. Five years ago, I likely would have read this article with curiosity ... I mean, I did not want my unborn child to have Down syndrome.
The thought of it scared me. But I didn't know what I didn't know.
I get frustrated because I love my girls with every ounce of my soul. How could I think something like this is promising or exciting? Is it not essentially an effort to rid this earth of individuals with Down syndrome?
It brings me to tears.
And then there is a part of me that feels like I need to get it. It was the exact shoes I stood in 5 years ago. Now having two children with Down syndrome, I sort of find myself standing in those shoes once again ... you know, if we ever were to have children again. But it isn't because I wouldn't want another Payton or another Nika ... it is because I have my hands full with special needs and I really do not need any more.
So yeah ... as it sit here and type this rambled mess of thoughts ... I think it is different. And the headline still makes me want to hurl.
Rather than backspace a million times and try to explain my thoughts exactly, just watch this ...
Click here to be inspired. And click here to donate.